Well, my last year at hogwarts is approaching. Lots of things have happened over the summer. A lot of us have matured, and grew in more than one way. I smoothed things over with everyone, in fact all of the family went on vacation to visit the carribean, we made Melody tag along, and it was quite fun, learned about the different hexes and spells they used down there, it seems so... old fashion. It's all about survival, and sometimes revenge, but I guess we can relate in some ways, it's just different. Andrew and I smoothed things over as well, and we're cool with each other. He's not coming back to school this year though, he promised to write me, so I suppose we'll see what he has to say when I recieve a post from him.

So, I'm excited about going back, it should be a good year, final one after all. I'm ready to finish, and maybe start a great career, of course it will probably take more studying and classes and such after hogwarts to get whever I choose to be, but it will be an adventure.

It seems everyone's been neglecting this, I guess I can't blame them, we've all been caught up in life, moving on to greater things, moving seperate ways. I hope we always remember all those times we had together, the careless times, the good old days, haha.

I guess that's all for now, I'm off to bed! I'll tell everyone I updated, maybe someone else will follow?

Then only one more year, for me anyhow. Thank goodness...

I can hardly wait for summer, it can not come too fast now. I saw pictures posted from the dance this year. There is one picture of me, and I'm concentrating trying to get my own camera working. It's quite.... astonishing how... hard I WAS concentrating. I don't remember having it taken, and of course I'm just standing there, not smiling, or even moving much for that matter. Simply... horrific.

Anyhow, I need to get going. I promised I'd meet someone outside.

Oh, pleeease Aingeal. An E, is hardly anything to complain about. Ha, so glad we didn't have to take it, I probably wouldn't get an E. It must have been rather difficult for you to get only an E though, eh? I have NEWTS coming up too.. soon. Just thinking about them, just makes me want to get it over with and move on with my life.

Speaking of which, I've been worried about. I don't know what's going on with my future.... I don't know what I'll do, or where I'll go. However, I think I may have an idea, I just don't know how long it's going to last, and that makes me worried. Sometimes, I still wish I had someone to talk to about that, but he's currently busy snogging Liv across the room, probably purposly.

I haven't really spoken to anyone lately, not since spring break. Well... except for those casual smiles or quick conversations. In some ways, I'll be very happy to get out of here soon.

Where's Josh been Aingeal? What'd you mean you haven't seen him? Is everything okay between you guys?

I actually... enjoyed having our little spring break. It was quite relaxing. Aingeal and I had the chance to talk things over, yet I still don't know where she stands on the issue with Ryan and Andrew. Andrew's with Liv now I guess. I found out something REALLY interested about Liv though, that I imagine she really never wanted me to find out. Honestly, like I wouldn't, I know most of my gossip ties have been severed, but that doesn't mean I have other ways of getting my information myself.

What do you mean they give you dirty looks?!

WHY IS EVERYONE... AUGH. No one ENEN LIKES ANDREW! SO WHY ARE THEY TAKING HIS SIDE! And how the bloody hell did the whole school end up knowing?! Who even knew?! Ryan wouldn't have said anything, I DIDN'T except to Aingeal.... and she swore to me she didn't tell.

I almost... regret what I did. I spilled my heart, I told him everything, and he threw me aside. I hate you, Ryan.

Uh... augh... well, It's kind of complicated actually. I mean, I... well. I don't want to talk about it. Practically the entire common room hates me. With no help from Liv of course. She never TOLD me she had a crush on Ryan. She never TOLD me that. AUGH, she's bloody pissing me off! I could just... CURSE HER! She was hanging all over Andrew today, probably trying to make me upset.

So, that's my life story. Ryan hasn't said a word to me either... since then

What are you talking about?! Is it about Mark? Obviously, he died for a purpose, and for a cause right? I mean, obviously he did something against the dark lord, even though that would be stupid. So, atleast he didn't sit around doing nothing? And stood up for what he believed in. And sometimes you get yourself blown up in the process. Obviously a true gryffindor...

Anyway, Andrew and I broke up. That's all.

First off, happy birthday to my dear sister, Aingeal! I hope it was spectacular and you enjoyed the goodies that I sent you.

I seriously... think I screw everything up that I do. What the bloody hell was I thinking anyway?! AUGHAW#TRIQT